Yikes

I feel as though I'm knowingly getting myself into more than I can handle. I need to STOP. This isn't good at all. Ughhh. Well, I should start by stepping away from this computer. Last night I saw Styx in concert with Michelle and then stayed up all night long not doing much of anything. All I have to show for it is a stomach ache and I'm tired. I went to bed at about 10AM and slept until 2PMish.. Yuck. Bad decision, Steph! But I had a good time.. so it was worth it. Sort of. I don't know. Just please try to behave yourself. Despite all the beer I still weighed 153lbs this morning. My dad isn't home yet, and I don't know when he'll be getting home. It kind of concerns me because I need to leave for work in a little over 2 hours. 6:15... so I need to leave at around 5:45. Bleh. Anyway I'm going to take today as the day I get my act together.

17lbs gone baby!

Too bad it's still incredibly frustrating since I'm still 26lbs away from where I want to be. Oh do I keep on movin' though! Lately I've been super in love with life. Maybe it's because I'm currently unemployed, maybe it's because I'm 17lbs less than I was before. Who knows! My tummy is getting full of coffee. Mark and I went to the beach yesterday. It was the first time (in a very, very long time) that I had the full beach experience. Bathing suit, swimming in the sun, laying out. So much fun. I'm glad I have Mark to break me out of my shell and force me to do things like that. I'm such a weenie. Time to kick this diet into overdrive. I only lost a pound this week. Two weeks and 5 days until Mark's beach party and my goal weight for it is *150*. Wouldn't that be nice? :) I was working out, but haven't for two nights, so tonight it's a MUST. Oh shizz my period is starting soon. Fucking bloated-ness here I come. Oh well.

Sing Me to Sleep

How am I not myself?