oh my god

Why do I always end up getting shit faced drunk and doing something completely stupid? It seems like it happens all too often for me. I really hate, hate, hate it. I need to find a balance when drinking. Yikes.

Yet Again

I've been getting off track with my life... that's not good.
Tomorrow I will be on track.. I should probably go to sleep now. :)

Yikes

I feel as though I'm knowingly getting myself into more than I can handle. I need to STOP. This isn't good at all. Ughhh. Well, I should start by stepping away from this computer. Last night I saw Styx in concert with Michelle and then stayed up all night long not doing much of anything. All I have to show for it is a stomach ache and I'm tired. I went to bed at about 10AM and slept until 2PMish.. Yuck. Bad decision, Steph! But I had a good time.. so it was worth it. Sort of. I don't know. Just please try to behave yourself. Despite all the beer I still weighed 153lbs this morning. My dad isn't home yet, and I don't know when he'll be getting home. It kind of concerns me because I need to leave for work in a little over 2 hours. 6:15... so I need to leave at around 5:45. Bleh. Anyway I'm going to take today as the day I get my act together.

17lbs gone baby!

Too bad it's still incredibly frustrating since I'm still 26lbs away from where I want to be. Oh do I keep on movin' though! Lately I've been super in love with life. Maybe it's because I'm currently unemployed, maybe it's because I'm 17lbs less than I was before. Who knows! My tummy is getting full of coffee. Mark and I went to the beach yesterday. It was the first time (in a very, very long time) that I had the full beach experience. Bathing suit, swimming in the sun, laying out. So much fun. I'm glad I have Mark to break me out of my shell and force me to do things like that. I'm such a weenie. Time to kick this diet into overdrive. I only lost a pound this week. Two weeks and 5 days until Mark's beach party and my goal weight for it is *150*. Wouldn't that be nice? :) I was working out, but haven't for two nights, so tonight it's a MUST. Oh shizz my period is starting soon. Fucking bloated-ness here I come. Oh well.

Sing Me to Sleep

How am I not myself?

Diet

This new eat healthy thing I've started is going pretty well. I love it. TWO weeks strong. Amazing for me. Hopefully I'll be able to survive another 6 weeks. Ha what am I saying? I will. I'm determined.
Tonight I'm going out with Mark. Dinner or DiNNER as he calls it. lol, but anyway, I plan on only eating a side salad. We will commence with drinking later than that... My limit will be 3 drinks. I don't need all that sugar..

Oh the Sanity

I'd totally love this flower hummingbird tattooed somewhere on my body, but it won't happen for another 40lbs.
On unrelated note, I got the job at Safeway. I was asked to take a drug test on the SPOT! It was crazy, but I passed and tomorrow I go in to fill out paper work. Yay! Finally getting away from AMC. Diet's still on. Tomorrow will be 9 days... and counting. 20lbs lighter here I come!